Was it all a bad idea?

[randomdrifter865]

I'm losing touch with myself right now folks. I'm just not sure how to explain the pain I feel without breaking down. As a lot of you know I got the presidents position in my club on the first day for me to be a member of said club and l already feel I've done nothing ,but caused trouble without realising it sooner.

Am I really a terrible person was I right to accept the nomination from my freind to go against the guy who has the expierence and had the plans get his position taken a way from him because the new guy stepped up because someone nominated him over the other guy who I consider a freind as well. Was I right to do that? I'm starting to really think that perhaps this was the worst idea because now its creating a conflict with in myself and the person I consider a freind and I do not always know what people think of me I can't read minds. I can only go along with what I believe is right and I get my power because other believe in me ,but I do not believe in myself.

I was finally able to talk to my freind whom was going to be the candidate through the e mail he sent me and I was heart broken because I felt like I really destroyed him and no one is to blame ,but me the one who stepped up when I clearly should have stepped down. I am a monster people... I shouldn't even show my face at school ,but I can't afford that because I got a future to go for and if I let myself drop I've done the stupidest thing ever ,but its to late for to give up on the position because already I've done some positive things that a lot of the members like what I'm doing despite being new and inexpierenced.

And part of the reason I won't give up the position is because I feel I've let the people who picked me down because I couldn't man up and I couldn't look at the face of my other candiate because I stole away what he was training for since day one.

[Nazeres]

Nah you're not a horrible person dude. The other candidate is the one to be angry, because it shows that you care SO much for the position. Maybe the other guy had done it before and he wants to feel like he is god by doing something that he had experience. This leaves you to start working harder and ask yourself "What do they like to do also?" This leaves a challenge to show against the enemy that you TOO have the power and can learn the experience. Do not give up no matter how tight the situation is. You got a position that RARELY anybody can get, this shows you have MORE friends that can back you up! This is YOUR time to shine, and screw the other guy.
Oh and you're so called friend (that I guess hates you) is jealous! BECAUSE HE DON'T KNOW THE POWER OF PANCAKES!
And you know why!?! Cause your the bomb! Nobody fucks with a drifter!!

Sorry, I got carried away >_<

[Chaos Tank]

In the grand scheme of things this isn't really that big a deal, even if it seems like it right now. Unless you have plans to do big things with your position I think maybe you should resign and give it to the other guy. It sounds like he really had ideas for the position and it could help save relationships. Maybe you could be his vice president or something?

[randomdrifter865]

Well the things the other members seem to like in the long run about me is I am full of new ideas and they like I am one of those who always makes sure I can back somebody up and that I'm the type that makes sure every measure is considered before I make a decision. I am not one of those who goes off willy nilly and does what I want which its unknown how the other guy could of ran things. He could've been the same type as I and had it better off then I would of done things. I need to really think long and hard about this one honestly the truth is if I drop being the president I can't go for VP because I dropped being the president, but if I drop it I can be where I should of been at the bottom of the totem and just be a member.

According to some other people the other guy is a bit self centered despite the fact I have not seen this for myself and clearly he's more logical where as I am more emotional. I jsut feel terrible that if you looked at it real carefully whihc he is right that I stole the position when I didn't have the right to even be in it because A this is first club, and the meeting I got nominated and won it was my first day ever and alrady I'm leading the club.

I never believed that I could ,but these past few weeks of learning the ropes and still understanding them have improved me a little I've done better then most preidents in the club because I am thinking ahead, I keep tabs with everyone to the best of my abillity and I like to make sure everything is going smoothly. That just the positives though.

The big negative is I destroyed the other guy and stole the position without even thinking or realising that I did just that in one day. And that's why I feel like a total monster.

[Storm]

I once felt that I was wrongfully placed into a position of leadership, but for me it turned out fine. Sure, you're feeling bad about it now, but instead of feeling sorry for yourself and wasting away, you should perhaps focus on making the best of it. You've got a position, and while it's just a club at school you should make yourself go down in history as the one person who set it on the right course.

I'm speaking from experience here, it's a lot easier if you just brutally accept your current situation and adapt to make the best of it. While I'm trying not to jump into the spotlight too much, seein' as how this is your thread an' all, I'll give an example from my personal life.

When I was a civilian, I was known as a bit of a gentle person. I was a quiet and peaceful man. But when I was placed into the position of squad leader in the military, I became a ruthless and violent person. It still haunts me now, month after my release from active service. Well, I guess "haunt" is the wrong word, seeing as how I like the change in myself. I tried my best to lead the squad, and adapted myself to fit a mold I was not prepared for in any way. I became a stronger man from this experience.

As such, I recommend that you take what this position has to offer you and truly try your best to do your job. It will make you a better person. Certainly, the change will be less violent as was in my case, but it will most certainly be a change in the right direction. Leadership skills are learned only through such strife, but only if you push yourself to overcome this trial.

[randomdrifter865]

I see what you mean. I'm slowly getting into the mold and I'm slowly forming it and I'm working hard to the best of my abillity and the abillity of the staff which most of them are still trying to understand their positions so in the long run my staff and myself are still learning. Right now I'm working on our clubs first event and so far all of its going well ,but thats an activity clubs volunteer for our school so we haven't done any fund raisers yet ,but we all have been discussing ideas on how to improve upon the current club constitution and so far my ties with the other guy has been settled. Will still be freinds and will still be servants to our club.

As of now this thread has been helpful and at the same time I like to ask to have it locked for it being a personel event.